Well, today just like any other day began with less sleep. You ever been asleep, but felt like you didn't get any? That's how I felt today. I was wrote up again... I need to get out of that place. I swear there's always something I'm hoping to get something new before break time so I can say, " Peace out suckas!" and bounce. Went around town and put in a few applications nothing spectacular or anything just a few and I just felt so much pressure. I don't like to feel pressured with anything so when he wants me to go here and there and I don't feel like I get a say so or get to state what I want it only makes me feel like I'm doing it for him, which will make you regret that person. I like to do things in my own time sometimes and I'm aware that I don't have a lot of time to do any of these things, that in fact that I must make moves very quickly in order to get things accomplished.

Were in his second home right now, this is why I'm glad we don't have this in our house cause he'd be on it more than spend time with me... sad huh? He comes here every- single- day it seems like to check on toys and email and chat with everyone else... where when it comes to us we can even say 3 words to each other. Where does the love go when these things happen like this?

It was 80 degrees here today... feels so nice. I want to go shopping for more sun dresses and tank tops and shorts cause when the summer comes I want to wear my tanks and shorts, halters and skirts, sun dresses and flip flops or sandals. I'm going to call it a day of typing on here for the moment. Later